Well, I have to admit that the most stupid thing I've ever done in my life is trying to change my best girl friend into my girlfriend. But I am incapable to change anything, anybody. For one time I indulged myself in a great sorrow and hesitation, for it was too hard for me to speak my feelings out. Now I say, it's ok, enough, I gonna take it. Let her go and let it be. From now on, I'll try my best to be more mature, and stop doing those childish things such as exposing myself too much to the opposite gender, or mixing friendship with affection. I found that woman never really understands what exactly there is in man's mind no matter how she knows him, never ever! And vice versa. The best way to solve this problem is to express yourself directly and clearly to your opposite gender. Those meanings behind the words in this high-context language environment will only turn things into more complicated and less possible to success.

P.S. It's 911 again. I'm always remembering so many innocent citizens died that day. I don't really like Americans, but I do hate terrorism. They killed thousands and hundreds of husbands and wives, sons and daughters, mothers and fathers who have no arm to protect themselves. Fu*k you terrorists, fu*k you alllllllll.